Let me count the ways...

How do I love thee, boyfriend? Let me count the ways...

Last night, you went out to celebrate with a dear friend of ours who's getting married in a month. It was a bachelor party, so I knew I'd be spending my Saturday alone. I was sad a little, at first, because you know I enjoy spending all of my waking hours (and sometimes even sleeping hours -- you know how I love my naps!) with you, but truthfully, I looked forward to spending some time just puttering around my house, reading, writing, enjoying my ME time.

Little did I know that you wouldn't give me time to miss you! :) No, you called me periodically throughout the night, to check up on me, sending me cute little text messages, even sending me a message to let me know when you got home safe at 4 AM, despite the fact that you knew I'd be long-gone in the arms of Morpheus by then.

As if that wasn't enough, you called me this morning to wake me up -- much earlier than I expected you to be up after a bachelor party, I should add. You called to say you missed me and how you were looking forward to seeing me again today.

How could I ever doubt your feelings for me?! And yet inevitably, I do, when the demon of insecurity possesses my soul and blinds me to all the love you hold for me. And inevitably my doubt saddens you, which in turns hurts me. A vicious circle.

The next time the demon steals over me, I will try to remember last night, and how you did not let our separation prevent us from communicating. How you left your bright heart in my hands, so that its warmth would soothe me in your absence.

The boyf and me visiting his law school, UM, in November.

2 comment(s):

Hannahkin said...

you have one special guy! and he has a pretty special girl, too.. so you two definitely suit eachother :)

Adri said...

I love that picture of you two :)